Friends, let me tell you that this hasn't always been the case. Those of you that have been around for a while know that I've struggled with my mental health, my self esteem, and the feeling of failure. Especially since we were swimming in debt, and guilt that I added to that debt through some medical struggles and my reckless spending when I was rock bottom emotionally.
I have let go of so many things. Many self induced thoughts that have caused me a great deal of pressure. I have let go of perfect. Letting go of that image of perfect has been life changing for me!
Many years ago I got off the merry go round, yet I still didn't feel satisfied. I worried and worried some more. What do people think of me, why can't I live in a beautiful home like I see all over blogland and Instagram. I would see people I know posting on Facebook about their gatherings and feel miserable wondering why we weren't invited. Why, why, why. Compare, compare, compare. It's a dangerous place to be.
Now instead of worry, having impossible expectation, and unrealistic comparison I have turned turned to true gratitude. I'm extremely grateful that I have my little home, for my little family, for health insurance and good doctors. I am thankful for all the things great and difficult that the Lord has put in my life. I can't even put into words how wonderful this shift in mindset has been. I'm living my life to bring joy to myself, my family, and most importantly to bring glory to God.
Again, I am soooooo grateful for all who have read my thoughts and shared my life on my little space on the web. Don't give up on me just yet. I'm working my way back into posting more often.
Let your manner of living be without covetousness, and be content with such things as ye have. For He hath said, “I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee." Hebrews 13:5