Wednesday, May 29, 2019

Joy in the Ordinary

Look around, really look around and you will find joy... joy in the everyday... joy in the ordinary things.

Megan and Great Grandma. Since this picture was taken her health had declined dramatically.   She is almost 92 and was recently diagnosed with Leukemia.  Sadly there will be no treatment for this new diagnosis.  Due to her age and existing health issues it would very hard for her.  Only the Lord knows the number of days she has left on earth.  We will cherish each one.
When you get your fishing line stuck in a tree you might have to get creative.  A broom stick, some pruners, string, and duct tape to the rescue to cut the line. 
Front step flowers. 
Someone is excited for baby cherry tomatoes. 
The military flight line must have changed recently.  We see helicopters fly back and forth, above our home, several days a week. 
A long hike along a creek. 
I could have stayed all afternoon watching Mama Duck swim with her babies. 
Like most of the Midwest it has been a very wet year.  Last night Chuck was finally able to get in the garden.  We planted 18 tomato plants that we received for free from Chuck's employer.  
Once down about half an inch it was pretty wet, but you do what you have to do.  
It makes my heart happy to see scenes like this.  My girl is at that in between stage and I know that she will quickly grow out of play.  
My parents pool is officially open!  
Be careful it you get too close... someone might squirt you! 
Difficult roads often lead to beautiful destinations... keep moving forward, friends.





Wednesday, May 22, 2019

Joy in the Ordinary

Look around, really look around and you will find joy... joy in the everyday... joy in the ordinary things.

I've only used the clothes line once this season.  Seasonal allergies have been horrible this year.  My poor Megan happens to suffer from them.  I hope to be back to using the line soon.  I love the smell of lines dried items.
I find beauty in all of God's creations. 
Yes, even beauty in what most perceive as weeds. Those yellow "weeds" turn into fields of wishes. 
 Megan loves to fish and found a new fishin' spot.  We've been several times. 
On her first trip she caught a large mouth bass.  It shocked us both!
 
Chuck and I celebrated our 18th Anniversary. 
 I spent a dry, sunny afternoon relaxing on my parents front porch.  We chatted and enjoyed the nice day.  It was so pleasant that it was hard to get up and leave.
Our school year has wrapped up and the new books for 8th grade are here.  I'm working on planning for next year.  My goal is to have it done before the first of July or sooner.  That way the planning won't be hanging over my head and we can enjoy every drop of summer.
Difficult roads often lead to beautiful destinations... keep moving forward, friends.





Monday, May 20, 2019

Content

It's been a journey, but I am in a really good place.  A place where I am content.  I don't mean content when my home is spotless, because let me tell you it's not!  Nor when we have tons of disposable income, because again that is not the case.  I am content just being.... me.  Whether I am puttering through my day, doing housework, running errands, or feeling those everyday stresses... I am content.

Friends, let me tell you that this hasn't always been the case.  Those of you that have been around for a while know that I've struggled with my mental health, my self esteem, and the feeling of failure.  Especially since we were swimming in debt, and guilt that I added to that debt through some medical struggles and my reckless spending when I was rock bottom emotionally.

I have let go of so many things.  Many self induced thoughts that have caused me a great deal of pressure.  I have let go of perfect.  Letting go of that image of perfect has been life changing for me!

Many years ago I got off the merry go round, yet I still didn't feel satisfied.  I worried and worried some more.  What do people think of me,  why can't I live in a beautiful home like I see all over blogland and Instagram.  I would see people I know posting on Facebook about their gatherings and feel miserable wondering why we weren't invited. Why, why, why. Compare, compare, compare.  It's a dangerous place to be.

Now instead of worry, having impossible expectation, and unrealistic comparison I have turned turned to true gratitude.   I'm extremely grateful that I have my little home, for my little family, for health insurance and good doctors.  I am thankful for all the things great and difficult that the Lord has put in my life.  I can't even put into words how wonderful this shift in mindset has been.  I'm living my life to bring joy to myself, my family, and most importantly to bring glory to God.

Again, I am soooooo grateful for all who have read my thoughts and shared my life on my little space on the web.  Don't give up on me just yet.  I'm working my way back into posting more often.

Let your manner of living be without covetousness, and be content with such things as ye have. For He hath said, “I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee." Hebrews 13:5