Everywhere I look I see or hear about someone I know having a baby. After all this time, after all the joy I have received it is still hard. Hard to hear about others experiencing the joy of having a newborn. Hard to know that it will never be me. Hard to feel this way.
Honestly I am happy for everyone who has a baby or two or three. I would never wish for anyone to have a desire for a child and it go unfulfilled. I had always dreamed, thought, may assumed that I would have two or three children. Sometimes it just hits me that I will never have a large family.
I guess maybe what I am trying to say is that the next time you are announcing your good news or attending a baby shower and see someone who has no children, an only child or who has build their family through adoption with a far off look just remember that it might be hard for them.
I am a mom to beautiful little girl. A little girl that is the answer to my prayer. The prayer to be a mom. I know that I am blessed. I feel blessed. There are just those moments.
When I have moments that are hard I reflect on this scripture.
"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11
If you are wondering what brought about this post. I received two invitations for baby showers this week and the kicker was packing up the last of Megan's baby items for my sister-in-law. Luckily the hard moments pass quickly.
I hope that you are enjoying some wonderful sunshine. Have a great, long weekend!